Today, I received an email scripture from the lord that I have needed for months. As a child from a very young age I loved serving. To be a servant gave me the greatest joy of anything else in this world. The last 8 months of my life have been emotionally, physically, and spiritually so hard that I made life miserable for myself and all those around me. When I say miserable, I mean I have been rude and discourteous to the point that others no longer wanted to be around me. I am normally a good natured, kind hearted, loving, fun, and good spirited person to be around. But for the life of me I could not figure out why things had changed so drastically for me. I have Fibromyalgia, which causes severe physical and emotional pain. Not to mention all the medications the doctors were prescribing me causing another list of conflicting issues. It was very easy for me to use all these items as a way to manipulate those things into my excuses for above mentioned behaviors. Yet the whole time I was earnestly and continuously seeking Gods face for help. However today an email truly enlightened me to the blessing of life that God has gifted to me. I can no longer use the Fibromyalgia and the medications as an excuse for my behaviors.This is the scripture I received: "But I will deliver thee in that day, saith the Lord: and thou shalt not be given into the hands of the men of whom thou art afraid. For I will surely deliver thee, and thou shalt not fall by the sword, but thy life shall be for a prey unto thee: because thou hast put thy trust in Me, saith the Lord." (Jer. 39:17-18 KJ)
"I will deliver thee in that day"- The Lord shall give us the reward of life for trusting in him! but I will rescue you from those you fear so much. Because you trusted me, I will give you your life as a reward. I will rescue you and keep you safe. I, the Lord, have spoken!" (Jer. 39:17-18) NLV
Strong’s dictionary describes the word prey in this particular verse as a booty or spoil. "Booty" as in the spoil of war, or any prize or gain. So because of the Israelites change of heart and return to obedience under God they were not only spared their lives but were given the prize of his eternal grace. Plus they were given the reward of what happened under the name of the Lord, meaning the spoil of war.
For me, trust equals fear. Fear of those I come into contact with including some of my loved ones and friends, only in the end, to feel betrayed and left alone. I truly have given the very best of myself to please and serve in every way possible that I could provide within my capabilities. Unfortunately, the most hurtful betrayals come from myself while holding others to my own high expectations. Yet as a servant I should expect nothing in return as "Christ" himself exampled for me. Knowing that each and every person in the body of Christ has been given their own special and unique gift to return, edify, and restore the natural growth of the Fellowship. (I Corinthians 12, Spiritual gifts, Unity and Diversity in one body) As I read this, God revealed to me the changes I needed to make, showing me where I needed to be obedient, and gave unto me knowledge the prize of his eternal grace. Needless to say God has so preciously given me back the life of a servant, which deletes the need for personal trust or fear in others that I serve in the name Christ.
We are all much happier now and my joy is full. Who have you served lately, without expectations of reward or praises? Have you been fortunate enough to find that Father gave all the praise you needed...?