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					Title: Pamla's Pause

November 2007

A Funny Thing About Miracles

Part a sea, save someone from death or deliverance in a time of trial, all are miracles. I wonder why then it is so difficult to recall our miracles? Before saying, "I remember them," see if you are a little like me. When I get in a "tight" spot I start pleading and crying out for God's deliverance. I doubt, not God’s ability to help me, but doubting if he will help. Just like the stories of the Israelites of old who wandered in the wilderness for 40 years I forget what God has done. I wondered how they could forget a large body of water opening up and walking through on dry ground! WOW! Then to top it off, the water came rushing back in on their pursuers. Talk about God coming to the rescue, this was truly a mighty act so his mercy, love and ability to care for his chosen would be remembered forever. Over a million people saw the hand of God and afterwards they created a song of thanksgiving and joy. I always wondered how they could so quickly forget something that enormous? (This being one of the many miracles that happened on the way to Canaan). Why did they even doubt when they arrived at Canaan that they would over-power the "giants" in the land?

This led me to examine my own life. I’ve seen many mighty acts of God. Some were huge and some not so grand. What do I consider a miracle? It is something that happens that I, in no way, could have made happen, but instead, it was super natural. I remember one morning; I dragged myself out of my warm bed to get started on the pressing matters of the ministry. When I walked into the kitchen and turned on the hot water tap, it was IMMEDIATELY hot! This was unusual because I had lived in this home for almost 4 years and it always took at least 30 seconds for the water to even start to warm, but that morning it just was. Well, to say the least, it got my attention and I knew that Father was going to speak to me and I began to praise Him. After a few minutes, I realized that I might just have a leak somewhere in the hot water line, so I ran the water again but this time the water was cold as usual, (meaning no leak). I had experience a miracle! (Like I said, some are great and some were small).

It's always easy to praise Him after he's done something wonderful. On this particular morning as I was thanking him, I began to see the maturing process in my life and so I asked, "what can I do next? How can I make a difference in the world?" I know we are to look to Jesus, as an example and to acknowledge his effect on the world. It came to my mind that if I were to be like him, it was important I find my calling so He could use me to make a difference. (Eph 1:18) After all, Father seeks those who want to be like him and, boy, do I ever want him seeking me! (John 4:23 & 1Jo 4:17)

Back to my premise concerning the forgetting of miracles, I really believe it all boils down to our flesh. If something causes me undue distress or physical problems, I have a tenancy to forget the miracles and start whining. You know, God do this or God do that kind of whining. "Oh Father, pleaseeeee..." It is at this time I need to remember the many things He has already done for me. No matter what we are going through our minds can be lifted into the Heavens where we are seated with him. "And hath raised us up together, and made us sit together in heavenly places in Christ Jesus" (Eph 2:6) Heaven is where we rule and reign, we may not feel like we have much say over things here in the earthen realm, but we can rule in our thinking. This means that we actually have to STOP our present train of thought and make a concentrated effort to recall all he has been so wonderful to do for us. It is not always easy and I have been with people who, when I have pointed out some of the miracles they have witnessed, have said, "yeah, I know but I can’t get past..." There is a fear of what if, this time, God lets me down? That kind of thinking is a choice, just like lifting our thinking is also a choice.

Such an example is back when I used to worry about Stacy’s health care, to get rid of the worry, I would remember the miracle of instant hot water which, brought to mind the total restoration of Stacy’s heart. The congestive heart condition was totally healed, yes, even the doctor was amazed. When it didn’t seem I could force the nurses to do what we knew was right for Stacy's health at dialysis, I didn’t have to worry, I did all I could and then I had to leave the rest to Father. He is the God of the miraculous. It is a wonderful feeling when I recognize that I do not have to fight, I can find rest in remembering what He has already done for me. I will do my part, (and that is everything I can possible do or say), but if things do not go my way, then I know Father has a purpose.

It is important to realize that this is an action that takes a continuous renewal in our thinking. It is so easy to be fearful of the future and to forget what he has done for us. We want things our way and we want them NOW! For me, I have to trust Him for the support it takes to run Promised Seed Ministries. When the money is not available and the bills come due, (my timing), I start to panic. Thoughts like, "what am I going to do," "what can I sell," "what will I do if...." all come to my mind. I start doubting his desire to provide for me. I can't help but wonder why I doubt when we are told he takes better care of us than the birds, flowers and grass. (Matt 6:26-34) That scripture goes on to teach us that only two things are required of us, we are to seek his kingdom and his righteousness.

Speaking of which, I hear so many, (including myself), saying, & I have so much to do, I can’t get it all done! "Well, it has come to my attention that he has given me all the time I need to get the two things done that he has instructed me to do. If I am not chasing after all the things in the world; food, drink, clothing, etc, then I will spend my time seeking his kingdom and righteousness. It is only when I am seeking Him that I have total peace. My mind is not warring with how to provide for myself, because I know that whatever happens, he is doing what is best for me. He is allowing that to come into my life which will make me most profitable for his use. My only challenge is to first seek his kingdom and righteousness and the best part is, in return, I develop a peaceable spirit.

I can only wonder why I find myself doubting if Father will support me in the ministry. Just like the Israelites wandering around in the desert, it’s when I find myself in a place of discomfort that I doubt. Instead of resting in peace, looking for his kingdom and righteousness, I am searching frantically for what I can do to produce income. At present, I am honoring my dear, sweet mother’s wish that I will be home for Thanksgiving and Christmas the first time in many years. Now it is up to me to either trust him to provide or I can be fearful it will all disappear. I don’t know how I am going to make ends meet, but he does! I can trust him because he answers my prayers. He moved mountains so I could be close to my family again. He transported me safely all the way from Georgia to California and provided for all my needs along the way. This is the miracle that I need to keep before my face.

The reason I fear is because, apparently, I am not seeking his kingdom and righteousness or I would know that He will feed, clothe and house me. I DO NOT need to worry about tomorrow. I am to stay in the moment. I am to do and be all I can do and be right NOW.

I do NOT want to be like the Israelites. Remember, they started to moan and God had to do miracle after miracle as they crossed the wilderness. We all love to see the miraculous, but it was because of their unbelief that most could not enter into the promised land. "But with whom was he grieved forty years? was it not with them that had sinned, whose carcases fell in the wilderness? And to whom swear he that they should not enter into his rest, but to them that believed not? So we see that they could not enter in because of unbelief." (Heb 3:17-19)

It is a choice to RE-call the memories of his miracles. Do we want to live in unbelief? Do we want to wallow in fear? If not, then remember. Remember all the miracles we’ve seen him do in our life time. We don’t have to call up those told about in the Bible, wonderful as they are, they are not what God has done for us. Those were for another people in another age. We need to remember what he has done for us individually. These are what cause our hearts to rejoice, fear to flee and contentment to come. Even more, God has made known unto us the mystery of his will, according to his good pleasure which he has purposed in himself. (Eph 1:9) We are representatives of him in this world. Right now, today, he says, "For this is good and acceptable in the sight of God our Saviour; Who will have all men to be saved, and to come unto the knowledge of the truth." (1Ti 2:3-4) The truth is that our Father wants all men to know his great love toward them. It is our responsibility to tell them of this love. But I would ask, how can one share the love of God if they don’t accept it themselves? If we worry about the everyday cares of this life, if we don’t trust him to fully take care of us and our loved ones, how can we tell others he is trustworthy? Sure it’s easy to trust God when all is well in our world. It’s a little more difficult to fully trust him when we don’t see the results for which we are hoping. BUT, it is only after we have come through the difficult times that we are able to confess and believe he is Wonderful! We wonder why the "saints of God" are going through so much tribulation? It is because we MUST be FULLY persuaded he is able and willing to deliver us from all temptation and doubt. We cannot completely comprehend the depth of his love toward us until after the testing of our faith. "Herein is our love made perfect, that we may have boldness in the day of judgment: because as he is, so are we in this world. There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear: because fear hath torment. He that fears is not made perfect in love. We love him, because he first loved us." (1Jo 4:17-19) You see, it not even necessary to ask ourselves if we love him, for we only have to know that he first loved us! Before we were saved, before we knew him, before the foundation of the world, he loved us! What a powerful statement.

There is a reason to completely trust him, we want to enter into the promise. It’s not just the wandering around for 40 years that was difficult for the children of Israel but the real sad part is the fact that they never entered in. (Jos 5:6) Just like Caleb and Joshua entered the promised land, so can we who believe, trust and rely on God to preform that which he has promised. It is important that we remember the mighty works of God, for if we let them slip from our thinking during the "hard times," then we will find ourselves in a state of doubt and in the same discipline as the Israelites of old. (Jos 5:6)

I do not always fully trust him to save me. In times of distress and discomfort, I am crying out to all who will listen, including God, I NEED HELP! Instead I should realize that I cannot expect him to do things my way, after all, his way is better. When Stacy died I thought my world was coming apart. I didn’t know if I would survive. It was during these lowest times I had to keep bringing my attention to the fact that Stacy did not die, (another miracle), for it is written, "that whosoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life." (Joh 3:15) Just because I cannot see his flesh does not mean he died. The Stacy I know and love passed into a place I cannot yet see with my eyes, and yes, his body, his house, has been destroyed, but if I believe God, then he did not die. (2Co 5:1) In my lonely times, when I bring this to mind, it brings me comfort. I trust that my God has a way prepared for me, that he will cloth and feed me, I trust him to be my husband and provide for me. But let me say here that it is during the hard times when my faith in him is tested. It is when my rent is due and I don’t have the money to pay it, I start crying out and I find it is difficult to remember the miracles. During these times I HAVE to pull the memories of the miracles to a place of prominence in my thinking. And when I do this, I stop and smile. It is so easy to rest in Him when I place my thinking in the Heavenlies, where I am seated, right now, (not after I die), with Christ Jesus. "And hath raised us up together, and made us sit together in heavenly places in Christ Jesus" (Eph 2:6)

For this cause I bow my knees to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, of whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named. That he would grant you, according to the riches of his glory, to be strengthened with might by his Spirit in the inner man. That Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith and that, being rooted and grounded in love, you may be able to comprehend with all saints what is the breadth, and length, and depth, and height and to know the love of Christ, which passes knowledge, that you might be filled with all the fulness of God. This prayer is taken straight from Ephesians 3:14-19. It just seems like the perfect ending to this writing.

Remember, to remember the miracles!

Blessings & love,
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